I. The Calling
Rudi Taslim wasn’t Muslim, but that didn’t matter when the
hunger came. Not the spiritual kind—though God knows that was part of it
too—but the gnawing, twisting kind that made a man’s thoughts turn to gorengan
and sweet kolak as the afternoon sun began its slow surrender to
evening.
“Hunting for fried snacks is the fun part,” he told me, his
eyes lit with something I recognized from the faces of men who fish or hunt or
gamble. That peculiar gleam of anticipation, of the chase. Rudi had been doing
this since he was a kid growing up in Kampung Melayu, that packed anthill of humanity
in East Jakarta where the air always smelled of cooking oil and gasoline and
too many bodies pressed together.
He’d grown up there among Muslim neighbors, had even worked
as a “sandal keeper” at the local mosque—a detail that stuck in my mind like a
splinter. I imagined young Rudi, arranging dozens of cast-off sandals and shoes
outside the prayer hall, listening to the cadence of worship inside, feeling
both apart from and part of something ancient and powerful.
Now he was a takjil hunter. One of thousands who emerged
each Ramadan sunset like creatures from some collective unconscious, prowling
the streets for the sweet and savory morsels that Muslims use to break their
daily fast.
“War takjil,” they called it now. As if food had become the
battlefield where modern Indonesia fought its silent wars of identity and
belonging.
II. The Word
Words have power. My daddy used to say that, and daddy was
usually right about such things. The Arabic word ‘ajjala meant “to
hasten.” In Indonesia, that morphed into takjil—those little snacks
Muslims eat when breaking fast. A language professor named Holy Adib had
written about this semantic drift, how purists fought it every Ramadan like old
men shouting at clouds.
“People want to define it that way, and no one can stop
them,” Adib had written, with the resignation of someone who knows language
belongs to the streets, not the academy.
But words change more than meaning. They change us. And the
words “war takjil” were changing something in Jakarta, in all of Indonesia.
Something was building, like pressure in an underground steam pipe. Not evil,
necessarily. But not entirely benign either.
III. The Hunters
The late afternoon sun beat down on Benhil Market like God’s
own spotlight, turning the pavement into a griddle that shimmered through my
squinting eyes. Sweat rolled down my back, soaking my thin cotton shirt. Around
me, the takjil hunters gathered—Muslims and non-Muslims alike—their faces taut
with the particular concentration of predators.
A young Chinese-Indonesian couple checked their watches
nervously. A group of office workers in wilted button-downs clustered near a
stall famous for its lontong. Two teenagers—one in hijab, one with a
cross pendant visible at her neck—compared notes on their phones about which
vendor had the best es kelapa.
The vendors watched back, their expressions a complex
mixture of anticipation and wariness. This was business, yes—good business—but
something else lurked beneath the commercial exchange. A current of energy,
invisible but undeniable, like the electromagnetic field before a lightning
strike.
“Many Muslims miss out on takjil because non-Muslims buy it
first,” an elderly man muttered beside me, his voice carrying just far enough
for nearby ears. “Even though they are not required to fast.”
The words hung in the humid air, neither accusation nor
observation, but something in between. I watched the non-Muslim hunters shift
uncomfortably, caught between desire and propriety.
Rudi appeared at my elbow, materializing with the sudden
presence of a character stepping from the wings of a stage.
“That’s bullshit,” he said quietly, nodding toward the old
man. “There’s plenty for everyone. Besides, what does he think happens to the
food? We don’t throw it away. We eat it. We enjoy it. We appreciate it. Isn’t
that what matters?”
But his eyes darted toward the stalls, calculating angles
and distances. The magic hour approached. Maghrib prayer would soon be called.
The war was about to begin.
IV. The Breaking
The muezzin’s call shattered the tension like a stone
through glass. For a moment—just one heartbeat of perfect stillness—no one
moved. Then the surge began.
Bodies pressed forward, polite but determined. Money changed
hands with practiced efficiency. Plastic bags of gorengan passed from
vendor to customer, steam escaping like souls from the freshly fried parcels.
Sweet scents of kolak and es buah mingled with the sharp tang of
sweat and exhaust fumes.
I watched Rudi navigate the crowd with the expertise of a
veteran. His movements seemed choreographed, hitting each vendor in an order
known only to him, smiling and chatting briefly with each, exchanging cash for
treasures that disappeared into the canvas bag slung across his shoulder.
The non-Muslims hungered differently, I noticed. There was
an urgency to their purchases, but also a strange reverence—as if they were
participants in a ritual they understood only imperfectly. Some bought more
than they could possibly eat, distributing packages to friends or even
strangers with a generosity that seemed part penance, part celebration.
A light rain began to fall, sudden as revelation. The drops
hit the hot pavement and rose again as steam, shrouding the market in a ghostly
mist. Through this veil, the war takjil continued, now with added urgency.
“Some miss out because of the rain,” Rudi said,
materializing again beside me. “Others because they come too late. That’s the
thing about war takjil—you have to commit. You have to understand the
battlefield.”
His eyes were bright in the gathering darkness, reflecting
the string lights that vendors had hastily covered with plastic sheets. In that
moment, he looked neither Muslim nor non-Muslim, neither insider nor outsider,
but something else entirely—a man who had found his place in the liminal space
between worlds.
V. The Fasting
Later, in a coffee shop far from the market, sheltered from
the rain that now fell in earnest, Ruth Medjber told me her story. Catholic
mother, Muslim father, and she herself an atheist who nonetheless fasted each
Ramadan with a dedication that would shame many believers.
“Ramadan feels familiar,” she said, cradling a cup of coffee
she wouldn’t drink until the proper time. “I grew up with it. In my family, it
was as normal as Christmas, and it always made sense for me to do both.”
She spoke of clarity found in hunger, of priorities
reshuffled by abstinence. Of charity and empathy and the strange control that
comes from voluntary deprivation in uncertain times.
Across town, Alexander Sless—a 26-year-old agnostic from
Texas who’d started fasting on a TikTok dare—was experiencing the same hunger,
the same clarity, the same sense of belonging to something larger than himself.
And in cities across America and Europe, non-Muslims fasted
in solidarity with communities under siege from prejudice and fear. Their empty
stomachs a silent protest, their parched throats an offering to gods they might
not believe in but whose followers they couldn’t bear to see suffer alone.
I thought of Rudi then, of his canvas bag filled with takjil
meant for breaking fasts he never kept. Of the sandals he once arranged outside
a mosque where he never prayed. Of belonging and not-belonging, and the strange
territories in between.
VI. The Light
The rain stopped sometime before dawn. I walked the empty
streets of Jakarta as the first prayer call of the day rippled across the city.
The air was clean for once, washed of pollution and cooking smells, filled
instead with the particular stillness that comes before a city wakes.
Lights glowed in windows where the faithful prepared their
pre-dawn meals. In some of those windows, I knew, were the non-Muslims too—the
fasters, the takjil hunters, the curious and the committed.
And I understood then what all of this was about. Not
appropriation or commercialization or even tolerance, though those elements
existed. It was about hunger—not just for food, but for connection. For
meaning. For some small evidence that in this fractured world, we might still
find ways to recognize ourselves in one another.
The war takjil wasn’t a war at all. Or if it was, it was the
kind of war where everyone wins, where the battle itself is the victory. Where
hunger leads not to hatred but to its opposite.
I thought of what that study had concluded: that war takjil
demonstrated how people could coexist despite religious differences. But that
wasn’t quite right. It wasn’t about coexisting despite differences. It was
about connecting through them. About finding in our distinct hungers the common
appetite that makes us human.
Somewhere across the city, Rudi Taslim was probably
sleeping, his dreams filled with the fried snacks he’d hunt again when evening
came. And in those dreams, I imagined, he arranged sandals outside a mosque
where everyone was welcome, where every hunger was sacred, and where every
breaking of bread—or gorengan, or kolak, or dates—was an act of
communion that required no god to sanctify it.
Only us. Only our shared hunger. Only the night falling and
the fast breaking and the strange miracle of finding ourselves, against all
odds, at the same table.
THE END
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