The Lyceum’s Shadow


 

They say some places have memory. Not the kind you or I have—the kind that recalls birthdays or where you left your car keys—but something deeper. Something that sinks into the soil and waits, patient as the grave.

In Bandung, there’s a place like that. A school where the ghosts don’t howl, they litigate.

Dr. Hendri Sulaeman could feel it the moment he stepped onto the property at Ir. Juanda Street No. 93. A weight pressed against his chest, not painful but present, like when you know someone’s watching you from across a crowded room. The 8,480 square meters of land beneath SMAN 1 Bandung was calling to him, whispering through cracks in the concrete.

Mine, it seemed to say. Mine again.

He straightened his tie, the cloth suddenly too tight against his throat, and thought about the lawsuit he’d filed on behalf of the Christian Lyceum Association. Case number 164/G/2024/PTUN.BDG. Just numbers and letters, but they had power. The kind of power that could displace hundreds of students, that could erase a school that had stood for generations.

The kind of power that made hashtags bloom like black flowers across social media: #SAVESMANSABANDUNG.

(But you couldn’t save what was already claimed, could you?)

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The metal sheeting around the old Dago Christian High School complex glinted in the afternoon sun, a makeshift barrier between the living and whatever was slowly reclaiming the abandoned buildings inside. Weeds pushed through cracked foundations. Vines strangled empty doorways. The white banner warning “No entry without permission” flapped weakly in the breeze, its edges frayed and darkened with mold.

Pak Wiranto, the security guard who’d worked at SMAN 1 for thirty years, wouldn’t go near the fence after sunset. Not since he’d heard singing from within the empty complex. Children’s voices, he said, reciting Dutch lessons in perfect harmony.

“The same damn verse, over and over,” he told anyone who’d listen, his eyes bloodshot from insomnia. “Like they’re waiting for someone to grade them.”

No one believed him, of course. Why would they? The rational mind has little room for phantom schoolchildren.

But then, the rational mind hadn’t been here in 1927, when Het Christelijk Lyceum first claimed the land. It hadn’t witnessed what happened when the ownership changed hands through the years—from Dutch colonizers to Japanese occupiers, from The Joe Twan’s family villa to the Allied hospital where so many had died in those tumultuous post-war days.

Some said the ground was soaked with more than just rainwater.

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Hans Go had known. Even back in 1948, when he was just a scared Chinese kid trying to get an education in a world that saw him as less-than, he’d sensed something wasn’t right.

“We were prototypes,” he wrote decades later, fingers trembling as he typed his memoir for the Chinese Indonesian Heritage Centre. “Marginal men among the many. Our identities questioned, our sense of self adrift.”

What Hans never wrote about—what he couldn’t bring himself to commit to paper—were the dreams. The ones where his classmates appeared to him with dripping wet hair, skin pruned and pale, asking why they couldn’t swim in the pool reserved for Europeans. In these nightmares, their eyes were hollow, and behind them stood the math teacher, Manusama, reciting equations that somehow always equaled zero.

Zero like the sum of their belonging.

Zero like the space they were allowed to occupy.

Hans was lucky. He got out, became successful, ended his days as the supervisory director of GoTan BV. But sometimes, in the dark hours before dawn, he’d wake up convinced he was back at Christelijk Lyceum, the only Chinese face in a sea of thirty students. And the building around him would be creaking, settling, remembering.

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When PT Graha Multi Insani partnered with the Christian Lyceum Association to “handle” the land dispute, their executives started having the dreams too.

It began with Marco Tanujaya, GMI’s project lead. Just flashes at first—children in old-fashioned school uniforms, standing in perfect rows. The Joe Twan’s family, hosting elegant garden parties on the villa grounds. Japanese soldiers transforming classrooms into holding cells.

“It’s just stress,” his wife told him, pressing a cool cloth to his forehead. “This lawsuit is too much pressure.”

But the dreams got worse. Now, when Marco closed his eyes, he saw the land itself—not as dirt and rock, but as something alive. Something that had been carved up and distributed like a carcass, its pieces given to SMAN 1 Bandung, Dago Christian High School, National High School, Pembangunan High School.

And it wanted to be whole again.

“We have legal claim,” Dr. Sulaeman assured him during their weekly meetings. “The nationalization was improper. The land belongs to the Association.”

Marco would nod, his mouth dry. He never mentioned how, when he reviewed the property maps, the parcels seemed to pulse like organs. How sometimes, if he stared too long at the boundaries, they blurred into the shape of a mouth—open, hungry.

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The judge presiding over case number 164/G/2024/PTUN.BDG lived alone in a modest apartment fifteen minutes from the courthouse. Each night, after reviewing the day’s proceedings, he’d pour himself two fingers of whiskey and think about his ruling.

The evidence was compelling. The Christian Lyceum Association had documents dating back to colonial times. There were inconsistencies in the nationalization process. The government’s case wasn’t airtight.

But lately, something had been interfering with his concentration. A sound like chalk on blackboard, coming from the empty bedroom down the hall. The room he’d planned as a nursery before his wife miscarried and eventually left him.

He told himself it was the pipes. Old buildings made old noises.

But last night, he’d gotten up to investigate and found wet footprints leading from the bedroom to his office. Small prints, like a child’s. They disappeared beneath his desk, where the case files were stacked neatly in a manila folder.

When he opened the folder, a drop of water had fallen onto the Christian Lyceum Association’s certification of ownership, spreading like a tear across the ink.

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The social media campaign grew louder. #SAVESMANSABANDUNG appeared on t-shirts, protest signs, graffiti across the city. Students held candlelight vigils on the school steps, their young faces serious in the flickering light, unaware of how the shadows behind them seemed to stretch and reshape themselves into figures from another time.

Reporters interviewed alumni, teachers, local officials. They all spoke about community and heritage, about the importance of education.

None of them mentioned the weight that seemed to press down when you entered the campus. Or how the drinking fountains sometimes ran brown for a second before clearing. Or the way voices echoed in empty hallways long after the speakers had gone.

Still, some of the older teachers avoided certain corridors. They knew which classroom doors tended to lock themselves from the inside, which windows showed reflections of people who weren’t there.

“It’s just an old building,” they’d say with forced smiles. “It settles.”

(Places settle. Memory settles. Ghosts settle. Lawsuits, sometimes, do not.)

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Three days before the final hearing, a construction worker at the Dago Christian High School complex was found wandering Ir. Juanda Street at 3 AM, his clothes soaked despite the dry night. He was babbling about swimming lessons and permission slips, about a pool where only certain people were allowed.

“They’re all there,” he kept saying to the police officers who picked him up. “All the students who never graduated. They’re waiting for class to resume.”

He was taken to a hospital and sedated. The doctors diagnosed acute psychosis brought on by overwork and possibly drugs. The toxicology report came back clean, but no one looked too closely at the water samples from his clothes—water that contained chemical traces matching the composition of pool treatments from the 1940s.

That same night, Dr. Hendri Sulaeman woke up gasping, certain someone had been sitting on his chest. In the dark, he thought he saw a figure standing at the foot of his bed—slight, Chinese in appearance, wearing the kind of school uniform that hadn’t been used in seventy years.

“You were never supposed to come back,” the figure seemed to say, though its mouth didn’t move. “This place remembers who abandoned it.”

By morning, Sulaeman had convinced himself it was just a dream. Just stress from the case.

But when he reached for his briefcase, he found a small puddle of water inside, the ink on his legal papers running in thin blue rivers.

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The final ruling came down on a Tuesday. The judge, dark circles under his eyes, hands trembling slightly, ruled against the Christian Lyceum Association. The students of SMAN 1 Bandung would keep their school. The land would remain as it had been divided all those decades ago.

“Insufficient evidence,” the ruling stated. “Historical context suggests the nationalization was appropriate for the time.”

Dr. Sulaeman accepted the decision with a tight smile that didn’t reach his eyes. The executives from PT Graha Multi Insani nodded and packed their briefcases, relief washing over their faces like cool water.

None of them spoke about what they’d seen in their dreams. About the children with wet hair who stood in formation on the grounds of Het Christelijk Lyceum. About the math teacher whose equations had started to make a terrible kind of sense.

About the land that remembered, and waited, and would be there long after they were gone.

Because some lawsuits end, but memory—the kind that sinks into soil and stone—that goes on forever. Patient as the grave.

And in Bandung, at Ir. Juanda Street No. 93, the students of SMAN 1 return to their classrooms, unaware of the other pupils who sometimes sit beside them, visible only from the corner of the eye. Unaware of the history that breathes beneath their feet.

Unaware that sometimes, at night, the drinking fountains run with salt water, like tears of relief. Or perhaps, of warning.

Because they say some places have memory.

And memory, like the law, can always find new ways to make its case.

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